I wake up, reach over to the empty side of the bed where you were for 30years. It does not get easier. I lay there and know I have to get up the strength to face another day without you. I get breakfast for the boys then go to your grave site to pray and read my bible lesson. One of the Officers called to check on us (so appreciative of the support we receive from them, they would do anything for us, because of you and what type of officer, co-worker and friend you were to them).
I attempted to go buy a refrigerator since the one in the house has been going out for the last month. Its just the freezer (for now) so have not been in a rush, luckily we have the freezer in the garage that has made due. I went to Cost Co, Best Buy and Home Depot until the memories of you not being there with me got too much for me to go on. I got to my car before I broke down. Things hit me when I least expect it but I think I am a little extra sensitive these last few weeks leading up to the year anniversary.
I continue to lean on Faith, Prayer, Friends, Family and Memories during these times.
Last night the boys and I talked about how a marriage looks and they both said they knew we had a great relationship. When I asked how they knew that they said because we loved being together, were silly and had fun with each other. I am SO thankful you were here long enough to make that impression on them and showing them and me how a husband and father should be.
I tell the boys We will NEVER get over you being gone but We WILL get through it together.
Love You More, Amy
Just keep taking one day at a time. You have a huge support system. Reach out when you need to. We love you and the boys. Each anniversary we look at the past and remember all of our good times. Hold those memories close to your heart.
Thank you Lisa, I know you know this kind of pain. Love you.