As I look back at my spiral notebook with your care notes I reflect on my last nightly report from your night nurse a year ago. I became to know most of your nurses. Each morning around 7:30 your nurse would call and each night your night nurse would call.
Around this time would be about the time they would call and give me a nightly update. I treated it kind of like a nurse to nurse report and they knew exactly what I needed. Echmo and Vent settings, labs, BP etc. Then I would watch Beach home renovation shows, doze off now and then and hope and pray you had a good night. I would keep the light on (in case I got a call and needed to write things down), notebook-2 pens and phone by my head praying I would not get any calls until the morning nurse report.
Little did I know this night a year ago would be your last night here on Earth. I always expected you to come home to me and the boys, because you always did.
The boys and I just did our prayers, I can tell they are anxious just like me, we prayed for comfort and strength, we know it will be a hard day. Many of our friends, family and Officers have started to reach out with love, prayers and support. One of the Officers txt me earlier to tell me one of the students from the High School brought brownies to the Station and she let them know how loved you were and how you made a difference in her life.
Tracy, I knew you were special but I HAD NO IDEA how many lives you touched. I still can not believe it has been a year since we lost you.
Love you more.
Amy