As I sit at the field (waiting for Gavins game to start)where I got the last updates about you I remember how anxious I was and I remember pulling over in the little parking lot by the ice cream shop in the town on the way home so I could write down everything the Dr was telling me.
Things like this hurt and open the thin scab over the deep wound I feel. I look around and see dads helping unload cars and equipment like we use to do and remember that use to be us. I miss it so much!
I try to push through and not let the boys know how it sometimes hurts to go to these things that were such a part of our life. How much we traveled and spent our time together as a family.
I love watching the boys play and definitely do not want to take any of those fun memories away so I just push through.
Love you more
Amy