Let’s Try This Blog Thing….. I do not even know how to begin or if this is even going into the site I created. I wanted to do something to share my story and hopefully help others understand or feel like they get it (if in a similar circumstance). This will be raw and real and I hope to start a healing process for myself as well as whomever can take away from this blog.
As I sit here looking at all the pictures still up because I still do not want to believe you are gone I begin to constantly think where we were last year. I keep clinging onto you were still here on Earth on life support in the hospital, but you were still here with a heartbeat and all hope was not lost. You were strong and ALWAYS got through what life threw at us and I never thought you would never come home. In
a week (Aug 3) I will not be able to say you were still “alive” this side of heaven. I am anxious, scared, and an emotional wreck. I can not breath at times and keep trying to be strong for the boys. I wonder what we should do to honor you on that day. I visit your grave site each morning and pray for comfort and strength and feel it helps talking to you (I did that every morning while you were in the hospital to just be closer since no visitors were allowed) so maybe I am just trying to continue that pattern of comfort even though I know you are “truly” not present.
I am starting to get messages from friends, family and even strangers who know the year anniversary is coming up and to offer prayers and support. You touched so many lives (many I had no idea about, and you probably didn’t either because it was just who you were and what you would do normally) and because of that the boys and I have such strong support.
All I can write for now, Love and Miss You More
Amy
Tracy was taken from this life way too soon! Unexpected and unpredicted his time was cut short and he left behind a community in mourning. The shock was real, all of a sudden the virus was real because one of our own was taken as a direct result of this horrible pandemic. I knew in my heart he would recover and come back to his family and friends who loved and still do today, but that was not God’s plan. Tracy paved the road for the rest of us, he was the first in our friend group to transition from this world to Heaven.
We continue to remember him and talking about him makes it easier to deal with the fact he is no longer with us. He left a legacy of servitude, integrity, respect and love for his neighbors, his country and most of all his family. We miss him every day. Rest In Peace TAG.
Thank you Aida, I know how he loved you and your family as well. Thank you for your kind words. I miss him every second of everyday.
Love you A